Hi MNB , just some stuff that i found useful along the way although I've not achieved total sanity as yet !!! used to be very depressed adn deluded. But it's gone more into anxiety and anger now. Because of that 'dep is really stuffed anger' thing someone pointed out. someoen said to me that when you are depressed soemtimes it's helpful to just accept it. Depends on how far down you are of course, if it's really bad i needed to get out and do something , but other times it was helpful to just mope around for an afternoon until it passed. and remember that some of it is normal. is a bit like having a difficult pet or child to look after tho in a way - it gets up to new tricks. once I discovered the anger behind it that's become a new problem which I haven't really mastered yet and someone said it ca take 10 years if it's a backlog. well I've been working on it for 4 and a half now ... and the anxiety and fear I haven't really finished working on either. Excercise has helped althoguh im now addicted to it. grrief I did alot on before, i learned how to do more or less. A t said that the way to master a feeling it to feel it. go trhough it. well that's easy to work on when you are not working .... when i try to do alot of work I can go into workaholism and block out my feelings ... so the whole thing has to be rebuilt really slowly brick by brick. I seem to have what feels like a relaps this year but have not given up my activities which is unusual fo rme. it might not really be a relapse just soem triggering stuff from a new t whoc I don't think was ok in himself acutally. a new t and some other stuff and some family stuff all at once.
am now feeling lost and confused but it's amazing that I've stayed on a level rather than sliding all the way back down again.
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am now feeling lost and confused but it's amazing that I've stayed on a level rather than sliding all the way back down again.
lolol
